Today is Mother’s Day, it’s been a train wreck…for all the obvious reasons. But added on top is the new issue…as if this weekend hasn’t been looming for days already, now I gotta prepare myself for the biggest challenge I’ve ever had to face…uprooting my family! I’m not happy about it, at this point it’s a secret ( please keep it so) it’s on the very verge of destroying me, I don’t know what my family is gonna say, or react, but my husband don’t wanna be here anymore. He’s done. He wants a new church, new state, new everything…and I’m barely holding my shattered heart together and now gotta hold my life together?? For real? I can’t do this, I don’t want to anymore.
When is enough, enough? I’m scared to death…this is gonna strain my marriage, 15 years of building a life here, tossed into the air like a freaking game of 52 card pickup! I’m angry, I’m hurt, I’m scared, I’m wounded, I’m furious, I’m a lot of things! Happy is nowhere on this list…depressed is climbing to the top real fast. I want to hurt someone, the one making me hurt, I want to be selfish cuz it’s safe!
God, please help me….I’m so lost anymore
A wise woman once said... 
I won’t say anything. ❤
Moving was really scary at first. But its turned out to be the best thing we ever did. And in a lot of ways its made us stronger. And we’ve just recently decided to make some HUGE life changes…. and neither of us would be able to do what we are if we lived back home.
Being so far away from family gets rough though. Especially around the holidays. I can understand that one. But if you need someone to talk to, I’m here for you. I don’t have any answers but I’m a really good listener. ❤
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Thanks love! ❤️
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